me despiace. Ce nonne possible por me.

What ravages of spirit conjured this temptuous rage?
Created you a monster; broken by the rule of love.
And fate has led you through it,
You do what you have to do.
Oh, and fate has led you through it,
You do what you have to do.
But I have the sense to recognize that I don't know how to let you go.

Every moment marked with apparitions of your soul.
I'm ever swiftly moving; trying to escape this desire.
The yearning to be near you,
I do what I have to do.
Oh, the yearning to be near you,
I do what I have to do.
And I have the sense to recognize that I don’t know how to let you go.
I don’t know how to let you go.

A glowing ember, burning hot, and burning slow.
Deep within I'm shaken by the violence of existing for only you.
I know I can't be with you,
I do what I have to do.
I know I can't be with you,
I do what I have to do.
And I have the sense to recognize that I don't know how to let you go.
I don't know how to let you go.
I don't know how to let you go. 

how annoying

I am so sick of seeing my beautiful, amazing, clever, wonderful, awe inspiring friends getting walked all over by guys. Its not good enough. 

They settle for these guys then blame themselves when it goes wrong. These guy are almost always the "living the dream" type aka i am in a band, sponging of the state, sitting on myspace all day perving on 17 yr olds with their tits out, getting money off my parents/girlfriend/ebay.

Now. When we were all little girls with our dollies, we wanted prince charming  and i see no reason why that dream should change. I know now I am never settling for second best.

These excuses for men are not good enough ! when my dad married my mum he took her on dates, bought her flowers and asked my nan and granded for permission to marry her. He even sold his pized sports car just so my mum could have the wedding she wanted. 

We all sit around moping about what we will be loosing....but actually we should be rejoicing, because all we are loosing is the apprehension of being cheated on, let down, lied to and finanically depended on.

No guy should hold a girl in the palm of his hand, and I for one never want to be with someone who makes me feel like i am "lucky" to be with them. They should feel lucky to be with us ! we're the ones living our lives, working, looking to the future and keeping are dongs out of where they dont belong.

..and dont ever think there attitude towards you is becsuse of how you are it isnt. i was with a guy who beat me up for 9 months, and i always thought it was me, then we split and he got with someone and it was exactly the same, cracked there head open with a vase ! So dont think you arent good enough to change them, you're too good is the problem and they cant handle it. 

so girls, know your own worth, and stop settling for second best. You might think leaving them will leave u cold and alone. it fucking wont and I am living proof of that, 6 months ago I thought my world had ended when actually it was the beginning. I love being on my own, theres nothing better than knowing the only persons approval you need is your own, and that the only person that can let you down is yourself.

always remember ladies, the sun maybe setting, but somewhere else its rising. 

I love you all and I'm not letting any of you get dragged down anymore !!

new journalll.


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